Hi again, I’m so glad i could help. And dont worry about me, as long as I know im still trying to change I know I’m in a good place or at least on my way towards one. Trust me, you are not and will never be alone. I am always here for you, and it is a relief to know I’m not alone either. You will not and could never ever be a bother so just put those thoughts out of your mind immediately! questions or just a casual chat, im here and not going anywhere. just remember obstacles make or break us. and it takes a lot to break us. so just remember to get back up when youre pushed down. you are amazing. and you impact the people you meet in more positive ways than you could know, so dont let anyone tell you differently. 

It was really nice to hear from you, and i hope to hear from you again soon! xxx

I can only tell you that, life is difficult. and it is a process. I’ve realized that no matter what has happened to me, no matter what ive seen or experienced, and no matter how horrible I think things really are, is that they are happening for a reason. The best way to deal with things that are difficult and that hurt you is to look at them differently. Yes. I am in a shitty situation, but this shitty situation will teach me something, it will make me stronger, and it will make me understand myself and others just a little more than I did. I don’t want to fool you, I am depressed and have good days and bad days. But I am now aware of just how consumed I was in depression and I have been trying to force my way out ever since. 

I know exactly what you mean when you say youve been quiet and watching others live their lives. I still find myself sitting in my room for days at a time without talking to anyone and without doing anything. I know its not healthy, but something I am working on changing. It doesnt happen over night either. Even if its just making yourself get out of bed at 10am every morning, you are making some sort of change. And you will relapse, everyone does. Its hard. But find what makes you happy, and keep doing that. You need to make yourself happy before you can let anyone else make you happy. Free yourself from your guilt, anger, and emptiness by making yourself present. I know you’re probably wondering well how in the hell do you do that? But try to focus on the now and the future. Figure out what you want from life and where you want life to take you, then do it. 

So sorry this was so long, its a tough and sticky subject. But I’m always here if you want to talk or just need to let some things out. I hope this helped. xx

I am majoring in classics and in communication.. don’t ask what I want to do with my life though, that’s something ill be asking myself the rest of my life haha.. but I love the 300bc time period and all that so I chose classics, and communication is close to acting so here I am, I swear I was born in the wrong time period